惊人还是悲哀

唉~一波未平一波又起...都不知道走什么衰运...
你到底发生了什么事？
接到姐姐的来电时心抽搐了，也寒了...
到底是什么事情让你做出了这样的决定？我很想知道...
你生病了吗？还是背后有人唆使你？
我气，可我也担心...
你真的要做到这样的地步吗？连家人都不要了？
我好伤心难过...想哭可是又哭不出来，很辛苦...
如果你有事或有什么苦衷为什么不和我们谈呢？
到底家那里对你不好了？做了什么事让你变成这个摸样？我想不通...

你让我觉得自己很失败。
明明读的是心理学，可是对家事一点忙也帮不上...
这是所谓的能医不能自医吗？
其实我也害怕，害怕处理不好...
我不想与你对质，那只会让事情恶化...到底该怎么办呢？
这世界真的好恐怖，为什么你说变就变呢？？？

啊！好烦啊！
我唯一能做的只有好好读书，快快毕业，成为家的经济支柱之一了...
无奈无奈... 伤心伤心... 坚强吧~

Recent...

there has been a long time I do not update my blog...

is too busy with my fyp and assignments

I just curious, is my time management still worse or there have other reasons...

damn stress damn moody in this period

found out that I'm still the same, do not change much, sigh...

every time I feel that I'm a loser...

by the way, I am relief now...

is time to focus on final to chase back my marks

my friends do help me a lot recently...

actually I'm in in the emotionally unstable state.

thanks for their patient and comments

it does help me a lot to justify myself

I should be tough and strong

I do not want the same thing happen again although it happened already

I need to be selfish this time

I do not want my kindness being abused again

somehow, I never think that I am a kind person

I do not want make any decision while I losing control of my emotion

I read some of the article

I feel envy that they have such supported friend

feel glad for yours

here are something I realized....

ya...I realized that friend no need many but few with true heart is enough

be responsible to yourself and others

what is work what is emotion, you should make it clear! don't mix it with the works!

I hate waiting...hmm... must punctual! 

so defensive...

and...my confidence still haven develop...

there are few time want to voice out or ask question

but still do not do so, haiz...

like a "suk tou gui", useless!

I'm too concern and care what other people think and view

I should put this down

yet i still can't find my way...

however, I love myself more now

I can live with myself better than before (although not a healthy way)

don't care so much 

just want myself happy

my live fill with different colors

and all of this will be my memories for this 3 years

一句话

现在我只能告诉自己要坚强地面对一切，要勇敢！

这几天

This few days I feel very stress because I need to finish 2 presentations, 1 report, and 1 mid-term.

Damn feel frustrated and scare I will lose my emotional control again.

One thing I just can say is IN THIS WORLD NOTHING IS FAIR!!!

If you want fair, you need to get it yourself!

Argh!!!!!!

我要忍！
吃得苦中苦，方为人上人！

可是我很累~ =(